Change

I just realized I hadn't blogged in a good little minute.

Well alot has changed since my last blog. For starters I found out that I'll be giving birth to a baby girl on January 1st. I have to admit, when I first found out I was pregnant I cried then I threw up. LOL! I also thought something was wrong with me. It seemed like everyone around me was happy and/or excited by this news except me. I heard her heartbeat for the first time, nothing. Then we saw her for the first time, still, nothing. All I could think was that I was already a terrible mother, and she hadn't even come into the world yet. It wasn't until yesterday that I actually got excited about being a mommy. My boy has a way of making things seem better no matter how screwed up they truly are. I have so much that I still want to do with my life, and at first I thought having this baby was going to keep me from it. But now, she'll just be a part of the journey.

I guess me being pregnant has really opened my eyes to people and it's allowed me to see them for who they truly are. And from my observations, I have some really great people in my life. My friends have been wonderful! Especially all my guy friends. I have to admit, I'm actually feeling a little spoiled because of all the attention I'm getting, although I know it's for the baby. LOL! They all check on me everyday, asking me how I feel and stuff like that, and it makes me extremely happy to have people like them in my life. My family has also been wonderful. I mean it makes things easier that my sister is pregnant also (her due date is December 27 and mine is January 1). But the support that everyone has been giving me is amazing!

I'm grateful for wonderful, understanding friends and family. Without them, I'm not sure if I could do this.